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    I think I've mentioned before how much of an indecisive person I am. This is very difficult for me, as I often feel lost in the maze of pathways my life could potentially take. Problem with that, is I just stand there in that maze and I accomplish NOTHING. Let me make this a little more clear, at least in regard to one subject. My future. I have SO many things I would love to do with my life. The issue I have is that they all lay in very different directions. I know I need to pick a career that I can make some decent money in, because as of now, I'm not really planning on getting married for a very long time, if at all. Currently, I'm majoring in Linguistics, with a minor in Creative Writing and Anthropology. You can see right there that I can't decide. And I don't know how well I will fare monetarily with any of those. I've dreamed of owning my own business, of being a location scout, of being a make-up artist, of being a dolphin trainer, of being a journalist, of being a linguistic anthropologist, and several other vocations. It's pretty obvious that I get bored easily and have a short attention span. This runs in all aspects of my life. I do well with a guy for, oh, a month or so, and then lose interest. I do well in my new semester of classes, and then halfway through I lose interest. I start a new job, and lose interest. The only thing that I can clearly see myself doing is being a writer. It has been the only thing that I have continuously dreamed of, and that opens me up to doing something different all the time, which is exactly what I need. But you all know that many authors don't do very well. I don't say this because I want to sell books. I only want to make money from them to support my habit of writing. The thing that I want overall from my life is to be able to make a mark. To contribute something that could affect someone emotionally and philosophically. I want to leave something here that is solid, since life itself is so ephemeral. So I will write, as I always have. But as of this moment, I am working toward my BA in Linguistics. I still feel a little shaky about my future, since it seems like a big blank wall that I am headed straight toward, but I guess it's better to live in the now and actually be DOING something. I'm excited for my classes next semester, as one of them is a creative writing class, so my writing blog will be getting some new stuff. I hope you get the chance to read it sometime.


    1. Chibimie said...:

      I just came across one of your postings on FPN, which linked to this, and read some of your thoughts on boredom, writing, and life. And it is because I liked what I read that I was moved to write this: please think twice about the option of 'dolphin trainer' as a career. I've studied animals in captivity enough to know that dolphins, like its fellow cetacean (whales) do NOT belong in captivity, no matter how "cute" we make them look in performance. Studies are clear that being in captivity severely curtails their life spans, captive cetacea become neurotic and very unhappy since they are by nature's design meant to swim freely around 100 miles a day, etc. You can look up Rick O'bary and his recent academy award winning film, 'The Cove' among many other (even more 'serious') websites for information about this.
      Again, I've enjoyed encountering your interesting writerly explorations, and maybe our paths will cross on FPN someday.
      Jim aka Chibimie

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