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    I think I've mentioned before how much of an indecisive person I am. This is very difficult for me, as I often feel lost in the maze of pathways my life could potentially take. Problem with that, is I just stand there in that maze and I accomplish NOTHING. Let me make this a little more clear, at least in regard to one subject. My future. I have SO many things I would love to do with my life. The issue I have is that they all lay in very different directions. I know I need to pick a career that I can make some decent money in, because as of now, I'm not really planning on getting married for a very long time, if at all. Currently, I'm majoring in Linguistics, with a minor in Creative Writing and Anthropology. You can see right there that I can't decide. And I don't know how well I will fare monetarily with any of those. I've dreamed of owning my own business, of being a location scout, of being a make-up artist, of being a dolphin trainer, of being a journalist, of being a linguistic anthropologist, and several other vocations. It's pretty obvious that I get bored easily and have a short attention span. This runs in all aspects of my life. I do well with a guy for, oh, a month or so, and then lose interest. I do well in my new semester of classes, and then halfway through I lose interest. I start a new job, and lose interest. The only thing that I can clearly see myself doing is being a writer. It has been the only thing that I have continuously dreamed of, and that opens me up to doing something different all the time, which is exactly what I need. But you all know that many authors don't do very well. I don't say this because I want to sell books. I only want to make money from them to support my habit of writing. The thing that I want overall from my life is to be able to make a mark. To contribute something that could affect someone emotionally and philosophically. I want to leave something here that is solid, since life itself is so ephemeral. So I will write, as I always have. But as of this moment, I am working toward my BA in Linguistics. I still feel a little shaky about my future, since it seems like a big blank wall that I am headed straight toward, but I guess it's better to live in the now and actually be DOING something. I'm excited for my classes next semester, as one of them is a creative writing class, so my writing blog will be getting some new stuff. I hope you get the chance to read it sometime.